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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 8:09:34 GMT -5
Syn Slammed his door walking into his room,he had just gotten into a fight with his father about the baby,and he didn't want to be bothered by him anymore so he turned on his stereo and sat on his bed.
He was dizzy and bothered,he held his head in his hands,he looked up slowly his eyes were red and he was in rage.
Getting up he stood and looked at his wall,his posters starred back at him,he tryed looking away it didn't help,next thing he knew he was ripping them down and tossing them everywhere,he kicked his bed,and his fist went thru beatings from the walls.
Running his hands thru his hair he looked down crying,"fuck Brian get a hold of yourself.."
He wiped his eyes and glanced over at a bottle of X over on his desk.
"you don't need that bri..u dun fucking need it..",tears started to come back into his eyes as he looked at it then down,he din't want it but it numbed him,he needed it,he pheened it.
he hit his wall once more and looked back at the pills laying his head on the wall crying,he looked down,he had been defeated,he needed them,and he was going to have them..
Taking about three of them out the bottle he threw them to the back of his throat and swallowed hard.
He sighed and fell back on his bed,he layed there and listened to bitter sweet symphony,as he starred at the ceiling before falling away into darkness..
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 19:49:02 GMT -5
Gomory knocked on the door after getting pretty much stared down by Syns father. She noticed that he didn't come to the door right away, probably thinking it was his dad. "Syn...?" Her voice loud enough so he could hear. She opened the door slightly and saw him laying there, she walked over to him, she thought he was sleeping. "Syn?" She ran her hand along his face as she sat down on the bed.
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 19:57:11 GMT -5
Syn looked up at ,his eyes were like little slits,his head fell back over,he couldn't really move,he had takin more of his pills.
Coughing a bit he turned his head back to look at her slowly,"h-hey baby",he gave a weak smile,"what are u doin over?,is it six already?"
He pulled his arm up to look at his wrist and laughed seeing as he had no watch on,"hmm skin".he laughed more.
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 20:00:34 GMT -5
"Syn, what the fuck?" She looked over at his desk and saw the pills. She sighed, "I'm sorry. I refuse to be here while you're acting like this." She didn't want to endanger herself nor their unborn child. Had she have not been pregnant she probably would have tried to help him, but she couldn't, she didn't want to get hit.
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 20:07:09 GMT -5
Syn sighed,"baby please,im fine.."
He rolled over falling off the bed,"oww fuck..fuck baby please..".
Getting up slowly he stumbled his way over to her,trying to wrap his arms around her,"i love u baby stay with me.."
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 20:10:00 GMT -5
Gomory moved out of his arms and went and stood by his bed. "Fine...I'll stay. Just don't go completely insane on me..please." She looked at him and smiled, she was cold today so she wore an over sized sweater and baggy bluejeans. The sweater, a pale blue color brought out her dark blue eyes. As she looked at him closely.
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 20:14:38 GMT -5
"fuck i dunno what happened, like everything started going thru my mind and everything was piling up on me it seemed like,and i told my dad about the baby and he almost kicked me out,he told me i couldn't keep my dick in my pants,and i just make mistakes.."
He looked down before falling on his back on the bed,he crossed his arms behind his head and blew some hair out of his face,"i just broke i guess..i hate taking those,but...i..i needed it..it numbs me,it dosn't let me me feel the pain..."
He looked at her,he din't expect her to understand,but to be there for him at times like this.
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 20:18:19 GMT -5
Gomory sat down beside him and ran her hand through his hair, "I understand, and Syn, maybe we should get the baby....aborted..since it will cost you a place to live and I don't want you hurt because of this.." Gomory bit her lip.
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 20:32:52 GMT -5
He shook his head,"i'd kill myself knowing i killed an innocent life,especially one i know i helped make..."
Syn looked up at her,he sighed,"im sorry for putting u thru this,and i'll send for all my band money and i'll get us a place i promise,it may not be like beautiful but i'll do something.."
he hated being like this,he always wanted to have everything ready whenever he was to have a kid and now that reality has hit he relized it was nothing like in movies,there was no little white picket fence to come home to.
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 20:39:13 GMT -5
Gomory sighed, "You can move in with me...My parents are leaving soon. And I'll be 18 in a few weeks." She laid back on his bed and looked at him. "You can move in with me, well, if you want to."
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 20:47:49 GMT -5
Syn wanted to stay with her but he refused to leave his dad,at least he wasn't going to right now,"i can't leave him,he may hate me a bit right now but he needs me here,and i need him..i never got to say goodbye to my mom..and hes old as well now and i dun want that to happen with him to from being upset at me.."
He sighed and looked away,"im a fucking failure..thats all i'll ever be,thats why i miss my band,thats where i belonged...playing my music,it took me away for the time i needed it to,and then i was all good,but nowlook at me,back on drugs.."
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Post by Gomory Rose on May 16, 2007 20:56:22 GMT -5
Gomory stood up, "THEN FUCKING GO BACK TO YOUR BAND! SINCE I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH!" She screamed at him and walked out of his room.
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Post by ~+Syn+~ on May 16, 2007 21:08:12 GMT -5
Syn watched her storm away from the window,he shook his head and punched his wall,"fucking woman don't understand shit!"
He looked down before looking over at his automatic on the wall,he grabbed it.
Smiling down at it he cocked it,he aimed it at himself in the mirror,"hows it feel starring down the barrel of a gun huh bastard?..hows that feel knowing its me that has the wheel on your life now,hmm whose the pussy now?,thats right beg me,get down on ur fucking knees and beg me for ur sorry fucking life.."
He smiled,this felt so good to him,the power,power he had never felt before,and he din't want to stop it either.
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Post by wowposter on Nov 8, 2008 22:28:43 GMT -5
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